Tuesday, 18 August 2020

Its getting to me.

I so miss my friends and family.  I am struggling mentally.  Visiting the Prom works but wears off quicker.


I walked and breathed.




I watched the kids having so much fun and gaining confidence.

I came home and walked in the clean air there.  Jason and the Argonauts returned today and shaved the grass.




The Rowan keeping the witches away with its brightly coloured berries.

And I was sad.  

I miss social intercourse.  Chatting.  The youngest grandchild is about to walk and I never saw him crawl.

My carer said I need to broaden my horizons and go to a shop.  I don't think that is really the answer.  She is worried I am running out of vests.

Now that made me smile.  So I will try that again.  A smile.

13 comments:

Chris said...

Jill, unless you can wear a mask I definitely do not think you should be going shopping. Everyone here is pretty good about wearing them when in an indoor space. I expect I won¨t be seeing my family once they go back to school in September - just too many possible exposures!

50 and counting said...

Your care provider is correct. Get out of your prison. Wear a mask, use hand sanitizer when you leave the shop, wash your hands as soon as you get home.

One step at a time.

Mary Bolton said...

Hello from across the pond. Keep smiling!

crafty cat corner said...

It's hard to be positive when you are labouring for breath all of the time Jill. I watch Tom sometimes and have to admire him for not constantly complaining, I know if it was me I would have a job to cope.
It must make it hard not being able to see your family enough but hopefully things will only get better on that score.
Keep up your painting, they are so good.
Briony
x

Just Because said...

Oh Jill, i too am so tired of this whole thing. My kids live in another state and we used to visit every month.

I can't teach part-time or take classes. The lack of face to face with friends and family makes for a certain loneliness that is hard to define but we know what it feels.

We must keep going forward.

Marjorie said...

I totally understand. I hit a wall this week. I am not a shopper so shops don't work. I hope you can see your family soon. I have not seen my youngest son since Christmas and he lives the closest. I may not stop hugging him if he shows up. Hugs for you and the DP.
PS do birds eat Rowan berries? I know the Cedar and Bohemian Waxwings will eat Mountain Ash tree berries until they become drunk.

Jackie said...

Could not your family come to visit...Social distance in the garden and at least you could see them and have a natter.

God bless.

Sooze said...

Oh Jill I really feel for you, I so miss my friends and family too. I do have some health vulnerabilities, as does husband, but not to the extent of yours, it's more down to distance with us, our families live hours away. This virus has a lot to answer for.

Tom Stephenson said...

Surely a few friends and relatives could visit? You live in such a lovely place that I would think that they would be keen to stroll along the beach with you, chatting.

Lynda said...

Haven’t seen my grandkids since February....I understand. A shop doesn’t cut it....going down to ride my horse every day at the barn where I board him has been a huge help...outdoor socializing with friends there...and I can’t focus on things at home at all...

Beacee said...

It's difficult, isn't it?
We've not seen any of our family since March - and they live locally. C does the shopping and we don't feel comfortable going back to church yet. So my only outings have been medical appointments, the vets and one trip to the hairdresser. But we do have a holiday booked in a couple of weeks time - that's if our lockdown restrictions don't become more severe.
Keep smiling! Hugs for you both x

Jean said...

I'm sorry you are having a haard time. It must be difficult when you have a breathing problem. Could you see family outside and keep apart? We have been able to see DD after a few months but even now can't hug her which is very hard but at least seeing her face to face is a bonus.

Somewhere round about said...

Who would have thought that Vests could raise a smile!